Testimony of Alan Manson

Alan Manson

At around the age of 13, I stepped forward at an evangelistic meeting and gave my life to Jesus.  It was an impromptu decision, but a very important one because I came to realise many years later that it was at that time, I ignorantly gave Jesus permission to direct the course of my life from that point onwards.  It was probably only a few weeks after I made that decision that I took my life back into my hands (or so I thought) and commenced making my own way in this world; however little did I know that Jesus had other plans for my life.

Around the age of 40, I sensed that there had to be more to life than simply going to work each day and repeating it as a never ending cycle.  More importantly, I wondered that if I was to die the next day, who would really care.  I wondered whether my family would miss me, and more importantly, whether there was life after death that my father often spoke about.  I decided that I needed to gather some facts to try and unravel this mystery, if that was possible.

I felt that it was useless going to a church to find the types of ‘hands-on’ spirituality I was looking for, so I commenced my search in the New Age Movement.  I started reading books that were quite mind-blowing, and it was difficult to prove whether the claims being made were true or not.  Eventually, I read a book that described how a farmer hurt his knee during a farm accident and a spiritualist healer who was brought to him prayed over his knee, and those who were there witnessed instant healing take place.  This claim had a huge impact on me, so I then sought out a Spiritualist Church to pursue this matter further.

At church one evening, I remember praying over a man who was seated on a stool.  As I prayed around his 'aura,' I remember moving around to one of the ‘chakra’ areas on his back – and I was astonished to feel this somewhat steady stream of warm air emerging from his back!  Wow!  This was too much for an engineer like me. So I commenced my prayer again from the front of him, and slowly returned to the rear of him – and there it was AGAIN!  I opened my eyes and could see the impression of the air upon the skin of my hand; so it was true!  This experience has been one of the most amazing features of my spiritual journey to this day.

It was very soon afterward that my marriage of 20 years commenced falling apart.  No matter what I did to hold it together, it finally broke, and my best friend, lover and mother of my children went her separate way with our children and without any explanation.  I was left to feel guilty for everything.  I had a choice of what to do; continue to follow the New Age and its version of spirituality, or follow the Christian faith of my father and mother.  I chose to follow Jesus whatever was the outcome.  It was at that time I had my born again experience in my lounge room.  It was like veils had lifted from my eyes and I began to see my circumstances more clearly.  What’s more, where reading the Bible was a difficult ‘chore’ to do previously, now I wanted to read it more and more, because I could now understand what was written.

Needless to say, I have attended countless churches over the past 20 years in search for true Christian spirituality, but I have not found it.  In one or two instances, I have come close to it, but for various reasons, I could never accept all the compromises that went along with what was being offered.

In 1995, I decided to transfer back home to live with Mum and rebuild a new life.  Coming home to Mum was a blessing for us both.  She was elderly and struggling to pay her bills, whereas with me living there and paying my way, we both lived quite happily together for the next 8½ years.  I would like to think that was the Lord’s way of blessing my mum for her faithfulness to Him; that when she needed support in her aging years, I was there to provide it.

There was a time  where I became very lonely.  I commenced looking everywhere to find a Bible-based Christian friend, but such people seemed not to exist.  However, I answered an advertisement from a lady in the local paper who was also seeking such a friend, and from the time we met, we knew there was something special between us.  About 18 months later, we married and have been on our ‘extended honeymoon’ for the past 7 years.  We are soul mates!  However, all this highlights the beauty of scripture and how God involves Himself in every aspect of our lives.

Firstly, if anyone reads the Book of Job, it can be seen that in the early chapters, God allows Satan to take Job’s children away from him.  Later on, his wife says to Job:
(Job 2:9)  "…curse God, and die."

From my own experience, I don’t think Job and his wife had a very loving relationship, yet throughout all Job’s trials, he remained faithful to God.

(Job 1:21-22)  "And [Job] said, Naked came I out of my mother's womb, and naked shall I return thither: the LORD gave, and the LORD hath taken away; blessed be the name of the LORD. {22} In all this Job sinned not, nor charged God foolishly."

I feel that I can relate to Job in his trials.  Although I never suffered the boils that he did on his body and the frustration of his “miserable comforters”, I did lose all the members of my family and most of my possessions.  Best of all, the Lord has not only provided me with a new family through my wife Lyn, but He has also restored to me many other materialistic things too.  Now I am a grandfather to Lyn’s lovely grand daughters and other family members are very warm and loving towards me.  I feel I am a very blessed man.

Throughout my ‘fiery trials’ (1 Peter 4:12), I have learned to draw closer to Jesus and depend on His strength and not my own.  In return, I have tried to share the Gospel to others in various places as part of my personal ‘cross’ I carry for Him.

If you are a Christian who has lost hope in this world and not sure which way to turn, I hope this testimony encourages you to not give up (as Job’s wife wanted him to do) but to press on towards the prize of high calling in Christ Jesus that Jesus has waiting for the ‘overcomers’ of Satan’s evil devices with which he uses to test people.

(Phil 3:13-14)  "Brethren, I count not myself to have apprehended: but this one thing I do, forgetting those things which are behind, and reaching forth unto those things which are before, {14} I press toward the mark for the prize of the high calling of God in Christ Jesus."

(1 John 2:14)  "…I have written unto you, young men, because ye are strong, and the word of God abideth in you, and ye have overcome the wicked one."

God bless,

Alan Manson